the much awaited update.
I know it's been a while, its just that I felt that it was too early to mention anything yet, pero now I feel that it's the right time to talk about it. Yes, as you can see from the picture above, may bagong lovelife ang bruha.
His name is Tin Tran, chinese/vietnamese and we met at work. Well, really we've been workmates for over a year now, and according to him the first time we met may crush na daw siya sa akin. Pero heller naman, we all know how guys are pag nanliligaw palang haha, jokes. Pero yun nga, naging close kami the last few months tapos yun, doon na nagsimula ang story namin.
Nung una, medyo ilang ako sa ibang nationality pero I thought to myself, why not give it a try and to tell you the truth I'm glad I did. Kung alagaan niya ako, wala sinabi mga pinoy guys lol. Pwera biro, mabait, sweet, maalahanin, at basta mabuti siyang boyfriend sakin :)
it's been a whileThe early days of a new relationship are exciting indeed. You find someone who makes you feel special and who is fun to be around. Over time, though, as the two of you become more familiar with each other it's easy to fall into the same old routine. When this happens you may start to feel as if you are being taken for granted.
If you have ever taken your significant other for granted then it will absolutely 100 percent negatively affect your relationship. If you think about it for a moment, you can say that no one likes to be taken for granted and very few people in their right mind will put up with it.
The sense of being taken for granted usually doesn't just appear overnight. It kind of creeps up on you, a little at a time, until eventually you start to notice that something about the relationship is different.
Nothing makes people feel better than that wonderful feeling of being appreciated and valued. Can you remember back when you met your other half and how absolutely wonderful it was? There was a feeling of mutual admiration and affection. We said things to each other like, "It's so nice to hear from you" or "thanks for calling". Do you remember spending what seemed like hours, (but it didn't matter). Why do we lose all of that?
Here are some of the telltale signs that he may be taking you for granted:
- He assumes you'll always be there: This one can be subtle. Do they tend to ignore you or your phone calls when he is around his friends? Do they turn to you when they need something but push you away when you need something? Are they not as affectionate as they used to be?
- He forget to tell you things: Everybody forgets things now and then, but if it's a pattern there may be more to it. Does he accept invitations for parties without telling you? Does he say he'll go somewhere with you and at the last minute remember that he has another commitment? Does he forget to let you know he'll be late?
- He doesn't care what you do: Does he care where you are and what you are doing if he doesn't hear from you? Does he say nothing when you appear for the first time with a new haircut or a new outfit? Do you ever get the feeling that you could walk out of his life and wouldn't realise till next week that you're gone?
Point of this entry. We broke up, I just couldn't do it anymore. I felt like it was the right thing to do, I just didn't "feel it" anymore. I just waited too long for him to "change", that I ended up forgetting about my own happiness, I finally realized that there's more to life out there, rather than waiting and wallowing around hoping for him to change. It would have been our three years tomorrow, but you know what I'm not upset about the fact that I broke it off, I'm just "nanghihinayang" about the fact that he let me slip away..
The Memorial Service of Michael Jackson
July 7, 2009
The stage ready for Michael Jackson's memorial service
Jackson brothers, from left to right, Randy, Marlon, Jackie, Jermaine and Tito, accompany the coffin of their brother Michael into the public memorial service held at Staples Center
Michael Jackson's glittering, gold-plated coffin
Sisters together.... Janet Jackson, La Toya Jackson and Rebbie Jackson - dressed head to toe in black - arrive for the memorial
From left to right, Rebbie, Janet, Randy, Tito, Marlon, Jackie and Jermaine Jackson sit as they await the service to begin
Marlon Jackson struggles to make a speech, supported by his family
Michael's eldest child Paris struggles to fight back the tears whilst paying tribute to her father
Millions of fans across the globe watched the televised memorial for Michael Jackson on July 7, 2009, there were plenty of the trappings of celebrity and fame. There was the golden casket, the tributes from the rich and famous, the overflowing crowds, the songs sung by the megastars, such as Mariah Carey, Stevie Wonder, Usher and Human Nature.
But it was the small moments in the service that were the most touching.
There was his brother, Marlon, talking about watching "The Three Stooges" with Jackson after school before being hustled off to a recording studio.
Magic joked about a time when he caught Jackson eating Kentucky Fried Chicken.
There was Brooke Shields, describing how she and Jackson, as kids, sneaked into Elizabeth Taylor's bedroom to see her wedding gown.
Shields recalled how Jackson's favorite song was an old-fashioned one, "Smile," written by Charlie Chaplin, who himself knew the bitter price of worldwide fame.
Then there was perhaps the saddest, most heartbreaking moment of all, when Jackson's young daughter, Paris, told the world through her tears that Jackson "Ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say I love him so much."
"Maybe now, Michael, they will leave you alone," Jackson's brother Marlon had said moments before Paris' brief, tragic moment at center stage. One after another,the King of Pop's loved ones stepped forward to make their case for Jackson as a misunderstood, harmless sweetheart who wanted only to heal the world.
"Wasn't nothing strange about your daddy," Reverend Al Sharpton told Paris and her two brothers, who were seated in the front row. "It was strange what your daddy had to deal with."
I just finished watching Michael Jackson's Memorial Service a few minutes ago, and Oh my God I have never, ever, ever been emotional over any celebrity's death.
Hindi ako showbiz, at lalong hindi ako yung " fan" type. In fact I was never really a die hard fan of Michael Jackson, but I do believe that he is one of the best entertainers we have ever had. Listening to his songs and watching his video clips now gives me goosebumps, he is often imitated but never duplicated. I am proud to have had the opportunity to listen and watch how he shared his music to the world, I may have not known him personally but I am happy to be born in the Era where there was once a Michael Jackson. He is truly a Legend and his Legacy will live forever.
Millions of people will forever treasure Jackson, for his vulnerability, his charm, his brilliant, beautiful music.
We will never forget you Michael Jackson
A Legend
Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 ā June 25, 2009)
His death did surprise me. I wasn't a big fan of Michael Jackson but he was a legend, if his songs were to come on the radio I'd still be able to sing along. Who could ever forget Thriller, Rock with You, Beat it, Bad, and Billie Jean? These are just some of his greatest songs that are still played on the radio and clubs today. He has sold 750 million records worldwide, Thriller being the best selling album of all time which was released 25 years ago.
His music has passed 4 decades and he will forever remain a pioneer and the King of Pop. As one of the biggest selling pop stars of all time, Michael Jackson used his global fame as force of Humanitarian causes around the world, giving 300 million dollars to charity alone.
Thank you Michael Jackson, we will always remember you and your music.
ironic
Having had 2 hours of sleep last night, I'm very surprised that I'm still able to keep my eyes open right now, despite the fact that I feel like a walking zombie nevertheless I'm still up.
I don't really know how to start this entry to be quite honest, reason being is that I've had two bad days in a row. So should I talk about yesterday, or today first? Or perhaps should I talk about both, or should I just talk about today? Hmm..
You see, I'm generally emotionally weak. May it be about friendships, lovelife, life or even work problems. I just don't cope well I guess. I tend to be very sensitive, a worrier and even a cry baby.
Okay if you''re reading this your probably confused as to what is going on with me. Cut long story short I had a bad day at work today. I was called into a meeting with the owner along with our Floor manager today and trust me when this happens, everyone at work knows that it's not a good thing. When you get taken out from the shop and into the coffee shop from across the road, everyone knows that its either, A your getting fired or B your in BIG trouble.
Basically, I was blamed for something that other staff members are also responsible for in the shop. On the other hand, the other staff members who were also involved didn't even hear a word from the owner. Bottom line, I copped all the shit and the blame. However for some strange reason, it has been obvious that the owner hasn't really been fond of me since Day 1. I don't know I guess people have their favourites. I'm much closer to my Store Manager and Assistant Store Manager, and they both have admitted to me that I am their "favorite", and trust me I feel it too.
No matter how much my Managers stood up for me today, (because clearly it wasn't my fault), the owner still managed to argue her way in. So I was just quiet throughout the whole meeting, then stupid me just started bawling my eyes out all of a sudden. It's not the fact that I was being told off, it's the fact that I work my ass off at her shop and she never sees it. I am the only one who ever fkn cleans and do overtime there and even come in on my day off to catch up on my client's contracts, yet somehow she just loves blaming me whenever things would go wrong in the shop.
So she handed me a First and Final Warning Letter today, stating that my performance will be closely monitored, and if there is no improvement in a couple of days she will have to dismiss me. In contrast, both my Managers were very upset too, because they know that what happened was really unfair. They both told me that the owner was just being a fkn bitch, and she's like a lion who picks on the weakest link. Yes yes, everyone knows I am passive and weak, even my workfriends. Whenever someone asks me for a favor, I find it very difficult to say no, hence I always do what is being asked of me.
As soon as the meeting ended, I couldn't stop crying, take not I wasn't crying quietly. You know the feeling when you're so upset, then your heart literally starts hurting? So my manager took me out of the shop to calm me down. She bought me a coffee and offered me cigarettes to calm me down. I wasn't upset because I got told off, it's not about that. It's about the fact that I try so hard, yet in the end it's as if I had not exerted any effort at all. What's the use? Feeling ko parang kahit anong gawin ko, at the end hindi parin maganda ang outcome. Yung parang despite all the effort you put in, para sa kanila wala parin kasi hindi nila na a-appreciate. So sabi nga nila, kung ayaw huwag na pilitin I guess.
Yes I'm upset, I have been crying all day, I feel like shit dahil masama ang loob ko. I guess I'm gonna go to bed with a heavy heart again tonight...
buhay estudyanteblurry ang pic, nababasa ba?
Paano ba yan, buhay estudyante na muna ako ulit. I have exams till June 19 so I won't be updating as much. Grabe, nawiwindang na ako. Haha, wish me luck, my first exam is on June 12 on Individual Determinants of Health, then June 16 on Human Bio Science and on June 19 on Perspective of Health and Well being. Mahirap palang maging Nurse! HahaThank God for all my recorded lectures! I can watch them over and over again, pause, rewind, forward lol! Back to studying I am :)
let them shine
Recent "love" comments on my entries from a "Bettina", or is it really? ;)
Such an insecure person. Pity people like you even exists.
Bettina | 05.30.09 - 3:43 am |
My god! Even my nanny and her bf look better than you both. Disgusting!
Bettina | 05.30.09 - 3:41 am |
You're pathetic. The reason why you're against skin whitening products is because you're TOO UGLY that I doubt even the best skin specialist in the land can do something about your look. HAHA!
Bettina | 05.30.09 - 3:40 am |
For the first time, I won't comment on this. I'll give the honor to all my FRIENDS. Baka kasi sabihin mo Bettina nag bubuhat ako ng sarili kong bangko alam niyo na mahirap magsalita kasi pangit na ako, insecure at pathetic pa. LOL
I'll let my friends do the talking this time :)
P.S
I know who you are, thanks for leaving your I.P address, it's as good as leaving your full name with your home address too. How's Cavite by the way? Haven't been there at all, you should take me around.
Friends, bahala na kayo sa IP ni "Bettina". LOL
IP: 210.213.97.26
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