Walking Down the Memory Lane

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A Legend

Michael Joseph Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

His death did surprise me. I wasn't a big fan of Michael Jackson but he was a legend, if his songs were to come on the radio I'd still be able to sing along. Who could ever forget Thriller, Rock with You, Beat it, Bad, and Billie Jean? These are just some of his greatest songs that are still played on the radio and clubs today. He has sold 750 million records worldwide, Thriller being the best selling album of all time which was released 25 years ago.

His music has passed 4 decades and he will forever remain a pioneer and the King of Pop. As one of the biggest selling pop stars of all time, Michael Jackson used his global fame as force of Humanitarian causes around the world, giving 300 million dollars to charity alone.

Thank you Michael Jackson, we will always remember you and your music.

ironic

Having had 2 hours of sleep last night, I'm very surprised that I'm still able to keep my eyes open right now, despite the fact that I feel like a walking zombie nevertheless I'm still up.

I don't really know how to start this entry to be quite honest, reason being is that I've had two bad days in a row. So should I talk about yesterday, or today first? Or perhaps should I talk about both, or should I just talk about today? Hmm..

You see, I'm generally emotionally weak. May it be about friendships, lovelife, life or even work problems. I just don't cope well I guess. I tend to be very sensitive, a worrier and even a cry baby.

Okay if you''re reading this your probably confused as to what is going on with me. Cut long story short I had a bad day at work today. I was called into a meeting with the owner along with our Floor manager today and trust me when this happens, everyone at work knows that it's not a good thing. When you get taken out from the shop and into the coffee shop from across the road, everyone knows that its either, A your getting fired or B your in BIG trouble.

Basically, I was blamed for something that other staff members are also responsible for in the shop. On the other hand, the other staff members who were also involved didn't even hear a word from the owner. Bottom line, I copped all the shit and the blame. However for some strange reason, it has been obvious that the owner hasn't really been fond of me since Day 1. I don't know I guess people have their favourites. I'm much closer to my Store Manager and Assistant Store Manager, and they both have admitted to me that I am their "favorite", and trust me I feel it too.

No matter how much my Managers stood up for me today, (because clearly it wasn't my fault), the owner still managed to argue her way in. So I was just quiet throughout the whole meeting, then stupid me just started bawling my eyes out all of a sudden. It's not the fact that I was being told off, it's the fact that I work my ass off at her shop and she never sees it. I am the only one who ever fkn cleans and do overtime there and even come in on my day off to catch up on my client's contracts, yet somehow she just loves blaming me whenever things would go wrong in the shop.

So she handed me a First and Final Warning Letter today, stating that my performance will be closely monitored, and if there is no improvement in a couple of days she will have to dismiss me. In contrast, both my Managers were very upset too, because they know that what happened was really unfair. They both told me that the owner was just being a fkn bitch, and she's like a lion who picks on the weakest link. Yes yes, everyone knows I am passive and weak, even my workfriends. Whenever someone asks me for a favor, I find it very difficult to say no, hence I always do what is being asked of me.

As soon as the meeting ended, I couldn't stop crying, take not I wasn't crying quietly. You know the feeling when you're so upset, then your heart literally starts hurting? So my manager took me out of the shop to calm me down. She bought me a coffee and offered me cigarettes to calm me down. I wasn't upset because I got told off, it's not about that. It's about the fact that I try so hard, yet in the end it's as if I had not exerted any effort at all. What's the use? Feeling ko parang kahit anong gawin ko, at the end hindi parin maganda ang outcome. Yung parang despite all the effort you put in, para sa kanila wala parin kasi hindi nila na a-appreciate. So sabi nga nila, kung ayaw huwag na pilitin I guess.

Yes I'm upset, I have been crying all day, I feel like shit dahil masama ang loob ko. I guess I'm gonna go to bed with a heavy heart again tonight...

buhay estudyante

blurry ang pic, nababasa ba?

Paano ba yan, buhay estudyante na muna ako ulit. I have exams till June 19 so I won't be updating as much. Grabe, nawiwindang na ako. Haha, wish me luck, my first exam is on June 12 on Individual Determinants of Health, then June 16 on Human Bio Science and on June 19 on Perspective of Health and Well being. Mahirap palang maging Nurse! Haha

Thank God for all my recorded lectures! I can watch them over and over again, pause, rewind, forward lol!

Back to studying I am :)