kids these days
bully.
n., pl. -lies.
- A person who is habitually cruel or overbearing, especially to smaller or weaker people.
- To treat in an overbearing or intimidating manner.
- To make (one's way) aggressively.
I was watching the TV show " Without a Trace" on DVD today, and one particular episode moved me. It was about a 10 year old boy who was being bullied at school, and yes a typical thing to happen at school. He was an average student at school, and a responsible son at home. He was the type that would not think of doing anything to get himself into trouble. When he went missing, his parents found out a lot about their son. The fact that he was being bullied at school, which caused a lot of problems for him. His parents were surprised to find out about all his emotional problems, that they had no idea about before his disappearance. Anyway to cut the long story short, he wasnt actually kidnapped, the fact that he was being bullied for months, and humiliated in front of his "crush" contributed to him running away and hurting himself. He ended up running away from his problems because he felt like nobody cared for him.
Yes, someone plays the bully, and of course unfortunately someone has to be the one being bullied in this whole situation. Some would claim that its normal, that everyone goes through that phase at school, because it's part of being a kid, or is it really normal? Or maybe just part of growing up? Who knows really. I admit, when I was at school I played the bad role. Honestly, up to this day I don't really know why I chose to play that role. Immature yes, but I guess everyone just have different roles to play, no matter where you are, whether you are at home, school or work.
After watching that episode it actually made me think how cruel some kids can actually be. No matter how much you try and guide them into the path you want them to follow, I guess you don't really know for sure how your child will turn out to be. No matter how you claim to "know" your own child, you just don't.. especially if you're not there watching them. Now I believe in that saying my friends used to say, that everyone has at least more than 2 personalities, one that differs at home especially. Now that episode really terrified of raising my future kids haha.
Pahabol
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
MARK ANTHONY GESTOLE!
I hope you enjoy your special day. Keep reaching for the stars.
kiss and hugs
krisha xo
How to be a better person in 2008? That's a hard one. I'm sure everybody is already thinking of things to change about their lives/personality or whatever for the coming New Year. I was browsing away, and I stumbled upon this little list and I thought, yeah, this makes sense. So, I thought I'd share it to all the ladies out there who haven't quite decided what to do with their life in the next 12 months. Goodluck bitches!
Tips for the Ladies for 2008
1. Aspire to be Barbie - that bitch has everything.
2. If the shoe fits - buy one in every color. 
3. Take life with a pinch of salt... a wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila.
4. In need of a support group? - Cocktail hour with the girls!
5. Go on a 30-day diet.
6. When life gets you down - just put on your big girl panties and deal with it.
7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality.
8. I know I'm in my own little world, but it's ok. They know me here.
9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself.
10. Don't get your knickers in a knot, it solves nothing; and makes you walk funny.
11. When life gives you lemons in 2008 - turn it into lemonade then mix it with vodka.
12. Remember every good looking; sweet, single male is someone else's ex-boyfriend!
it is indeed a merry christmas
Merry Christmas to my family, my friends, to him, to my fellow bloggers and to my readers. Thanks for all the greetings, emails and text messages from my friends all around the world. Thanks for making this Christmas a little extra special and unique from the past years. I am happy, I got to spend it with my loved ones, typical Noche Buena with my family, and my tita's and tito's and some family friends.
To those I couldn't physically be with, I am grateful that I got to talk to you on the phone at least. Ang sweet, pag ka sapit ng 12am magkausap/magkatext tayo lahat sa phone, Basta I'm very happy. Oh so happy! Secret na yung ibang details haha, kidding. Of course everyone keeps a little something to themselves right? * Winks * I love you, thanks for making me happy this Christmas, wala na akong hihilingin pa. YAHOOOOOOOOO
MAHAL KO KAYONG LAHAT !
YEEEHA.
end of year survery
2007 confessions
() stayed single for the whole year [sorta, kinda]
( ) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
( ) made out for the first time
(x) madeout in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) fell in love
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
(x) had a stalker
( ) mooned someone
(x) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
() someone questioned your sexual orientation
() came out of the closet
( ) gotten married
( ) had a divorce
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
() dated someone you've regretted
(x) lost your true love
(x) lost someone you cared for
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe
WORK/SCHOOL
(x) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(x) changed jobs
( ) waited until one day before to begin a project
() lost your job
( ) quit your job
( ) dated a coworker
( ) dated your boss
( ) dated your boss' daughter/son
( ) got fired from your job
() took an honors/advanced class
(x) broke the dress code
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
(x) failed a class
(x) cut class
() kicked someone in the balls
(x) skipped school
( ) got into a fight with a classmate
(x) did something you were proud of
(x ) discovered a new talent
(x) gave the teachers a reason to teach
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
) intentionally tripped someone at school
(x) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
OTHER
(x) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) seen a live concert
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
() doubledipped
( ) skinnydipped
(x) slept over at someones
( ) went camping[not this year]
(x) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) flirted shamelessly
( ) didn't wash your hands after using the bathroom
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) volunteered to help out others
(x) visted a new state
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't[i always do that.:P i'm just really lazy sometimes.]
(x) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disasterous meal
(x) drove the car drunk
(x) lost something important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
(x) got a gift you adore
( ) Got 'shit faced' on alcohol.
(x) took a new picture of yourself
(x) prank called someone
( ) almost got arrested.
(x) saw a college football game in person
expect the unexpected
Don't you find it weird, when you really want something badly. No matter how much effort you exert, no matter how much you try and make things fall into places, it just doesn't happen? Then when you find yourself losing all hope, when you've finally "given up" that's when things would start falling into places. Why? I mean I just don't understand the concept of it all. Should we just expect the unexpected all the time?
Anyway, don't mind me. I've just been thinking a lot lately again. What's new. Haha, I just finished helping my mum and tita's preparing our noche buena. Toodles, I've got more cooking to do!
MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS!
HAVE AN AWESOME HOLIDAYS
the meaning of Christmas
Do you even know the real meaning of Christmas? A meaning that we all somehow psychically feel even though our own intellect doesn't fully comprehend what all the fuss is about.
That hidden meaning is that Christmas is the festival of the human heart. It is a time of year when all the universe conspires to raise the vibratory level of consciousness on earth to one of peace and love toward ourselves and one another. This season resonates to the sweet, childlike innocence that resides in all of us. A time when the heavenly forces inspire us to shift our focus away from fear and toward one of joy, and healing. It is the time of the year to FORGIVE someone who has caused you pain. To let go, to start over again. It's the time of the year to show love, compassion and forgiveness to those who have hurt you. Let's all start a fresh NEW YEAR.
Merry Christmas everybody.
the art of letting go
At times we face a terrible moment in our lives when we realize we must lose someone we love. Whether or not it was our decision or our partner's. Perhaps the most terrible pain we may face in life is to lose someone near and dear to us. It may seem as if the pain of our loss will utterly destroy us. It may seem so terrible that we cannot want to go on living without them.
over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a
rude remark or an insensitive action made by another
person, you're headed for deeper problems.
In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get.
As long as you blame other people for your feelings,
as long as you believe other people caused your feelings, you're stuck. You're a helpless victim. So I'm done with pointing fingers, I'm done with all that. We both know our mistakes, where we went wrong. We both know that we've hurt each other so much, yet you did nothing to make the pain go away. Instead you chose to dwell on it, and chose to be miserable.
But if you recognize the fact that you choose your
feelings and you are responsible for your feelings,
there's hope. You can take some time to think about
your feelings then you can decide what is the best
thing to say or do.
When we first met I never felt something so strong You were my lover and my best friend All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it And all of a sudden you went and left I didn't know how to follow It's like a shock that spun me around And now my heart's dead I feel so empty and hollow And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
Once was a time you and IMade a promise till the day we die I trusted each and every word Never thinking that I'd get burned Silly me I believed in your fairy tales Boy I thought that I knew you so very well But you walked on my pride all the tears that I cried And it cuts like a knife
So what's the right thing to do? I'm letting go.I'm finally letting you go. I've done my part, fought for you to prove my love for you, countless of times. I swallowed my pride, everything for you. The more I tried to make things work, the more you tried to walk away from me, the more steps I took forward, the more steps you took backwards. We never met halfway. Oo nagkamali ako sayo, I said sorry, asked for a chance to prove myself to you again. Lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko " e mahal ko e", kaya lahat kaya kong tiisin, pero bakit ako laging nasasaktan, hanggang kailan mo ako sasaktan? I've done all I could do, I've taken all I could take.
Hindi na kita kayang mahalin, it took me a while to accept that you don't love me as much as I love you and that's reality. It took me a while to realize na lahat ng kayang kong gawin para sayo, hindi mo kayang gawin. It hurts knowing that you didn't and will never fight for me. Don't worry, I'm not angry at you because I don't have a right. You once told me that your the only one who could take the pain away for me, I told you I could do the same for you. But you said that, ikaw mismo ang gumagawa ng pain mo. Your the reason for your own pain, so no matter how much I try and take the pain away , kung ayaw mo wala talaga akong magagawa. Marami kang sinabi, especially when I had that accident. I believed every word you said, too bad you never proved them. Unfortunately, they are just words.
So tired, tired of all this drama,
You go your way, and I'll go mine. I need to be free, Why do I always play the fool?
I'm tired of fighting for someone who doesn't want to be fought for.
Go through ups and downs alone, knowing all the time that you wouldn't be around no matter how much I tried to convince myself that one day you will come back and join me.
Or maybe I like distress, Cause I am young and restless?
I would always cry myself to sleep, blaming myself nonstop for what is happening, lagi kong sinasabi sa sarili ko na kasalanan ko naman. Leche I was too pre occupied with trying to make things work, na hindi ko na namamalayan na ikaw rin ang dami mo nang nagagawa sakin. Instead of giving me a reason to fight for you more, you gave me more reasons not to love you anymore. Sana nakikita mo rin ang mga mali mo.
At least I know in my heart that I did not give up that easily. I can proudly say that I fought for you, for us. Knowing I tried, too much however makes me feel stupid, but at least I am not a coward. I fought for what I thought was right, no matter how much pain I went through.
I don't want to cry no more, no more tears, no more crying every night.
NAKAKAPAGOD NA RIN
Yes I do love you, with all my heart and soul, but I can't keep torturing myself anymore.
It's time I think about myself now, and not prioritize you anymore.
And I'm also starting to make myself believe that you don't deserve to be loved the way I love you. I'm sorry, I know you know that I tried, but all you did was push me further and further away. So I'll do what you want. I'll stay away, and try to forget about you, I know it will make you happier. I just hope you made the right decision.
If you can't handle my worst, then you don't deserve my best.
t'was a rainy day
a day out with the friends.
candid shot of angelo
my candid shot, grats to empi
candid shots of empi
we were listening to the song " Bakit labis kitang mahal" and he's pretending to be an emo on this photo. LOL
on the bus, on the way to my house. LOL you can see my feet at the bottom
playing pool
then went to my house
empi's trying to video my dog, whilst shaking his whole body. LOL
in contrast.
In contrast to my friend, Mapi's blog on her take on friendships, I would have to say that my life was indeed the opposite of hers. During my younger years, I've always been the type to "depend" on my "barkada" all the time, and when I mean all the time, I mean ALL THE TIME. I would always always be with them no matter what, we were together every minute of the day. We did everything together. I was out everyday, and every weekends. We knew everyone, went to everyone's parties, you name it. You would never find me at home. My parents would even scold me for staying at my friend's houses longer than I do at our own house. It was a very BIG DEAL for me, when my parents would not let me go to certain places with my friends sometimes. I'd throw a tantrum, or sometimes would even go behind their backs.
Now is a different story, now that I'm turning 20 years old, for some reason I don't have the urge to go out that much anymore. I don't feel the need to step out of the house to have "fun". I don't feel the need to be at the bars, clubs or pubs to say that I am having a great night. Now, I'd rather be at home during my free time, watching DVD's or sometimes even just blogging. Also, now I have chosen wisely who to keep in my life, and got rid of the people who I thought wouldn't be good to keep in my life. I know it sounds harsh, but I didn't want to have 1000 acquaintances anymore, I just wanted to keep my gems, my true friends, and honestly I'm happier this way. Don't get me wrong, I'm not being anti social now, it's just that I guess my interests have changed that I'm I guess 'maturing'. As I said to my friend Mapi, everyone has the right to choose who to be friends with, pwede kang mamili kung sinong magiging kaibigan, that's why we can get rid of the one's who wouldn't do us any good.
Despite the two different lifestyles I have had in the past years, I wouldn't say that mas masaya ang "mabarkada" noon. Honestly, it's the same. I may not be a party girl anymore, but I still have fun spending quality time with my good friends, over a coffee, a movie or sometimes even long drives. We may not see each other everyday anymore, but the bond is still there. At least I can say that I've had a taste of what it's like to be on the "wilder" side. Haha ganito lang siguro kapag tumatanda na. You tend to think about your priorities and responsibilities more.
I was having a conversation with my friend Alev the other day, and we were talking about how 'random' and 'impulsive' we were during our younger years, and how your perception in life changes once you hit the 20's. I couldn't even believe saying to her, that sometimes I even prefer working rather than going out and spending money. We just both cracked up laughing. It's really ironic, because I still feel like I'm a sweet sixteen year old with a mind of a 20 year old. Hindi mo namamalayan na tumatanda ka na every year, pero minsan nakakagulat din ang tumatakbo sa isip mo, na parang mapapa sabi ka nalang ng " wow possible palang maisip ko yun?".
"Buong buhay natin,
hanap tayo nang hanap nang magmamahal sa atin,
mamahalin natin.
Pero pag nandiyan na, pag hawak mo na,
madalas pinapabayaan na lang nating makawala."
It really irritates me, whenever I hear, see or even know about a couple who has "given up" on their relationship, when they very much still love each other. They both suffer, cry themselves to sleep etc. Why? Do you enjoy torturing yourself? Did it ever occur to you that you inflict your own pain and misery? I mean WHY? If the feeling is still there, why try and stop it? Is it because there are problems? Too complicated? Too risky? Damn it! That's what love is about. You just don't turn around and leave your partner when problems start to arise. Love isn't always about being happy, it's also about going through the roughest road together, hand in hand. Giving up should not be an option. Not everyone is given the opportunity to be loved and to love at the right time. If you've been given the gift of true love, why turn your shoulders for? OO maraming "lalaki" or "babae" diyan, marami kapang makikilala, pero you very well know that when your inlove NO ONE else matters. Wala kang nakikitang iba kung hindi yun taong mahal mo diba? So my advice is acknowledge the fact na yung taong pinakakamahal mo, ay mahal ka rin.
Hehe wala lang, I sound snappy don't I. I was watching this tela novela of mine, and it really pisses me off when the guy doesn't fight for the one he loves when he's obviously madly in love with that certain girl. Naiinis aketch. LOL Filipino soap opera's are too predictable.
Your the InspirationYou know our love was meant to be
The kind of love to last forever
And I want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul
Baby, you're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me saying
No one needs you more than I need you
And I know, yes, I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
Now I know, now I know
That I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know
Everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul
Wanna have you near me
Wanna have you hear me saying
No one needs you more than I need you
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
Bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
When you love somebody
Till the end of time
When you love somebody
Always on my mind
When you love somebody
Till the end of time
When you love somebody
Always on my mind
happy graduation janus
The word graduation has several meanings. The primary meaning is the state of being arranged in steps or degrees. We graduate from one phase of life to another, because life is a series of progressions. The graduation ceremony and the diploma you will receive tell the world that you are ready to go ahead to the next step in your lives. You have passed through an important part of the learning process. So Janus you have climbed up the mountain. It was easier for some of you than for others. However, it is an accomplishment that you should be proud of. We congratulate you. You have completed an important phase of your education. Use it well.my brother getting his diploma from the School Priest.
CLASS of 2007
she's lazy. he's lazy. we are all lazy
I'm exhausted. Well actually that would be an understatement. I'm working 40 hours this week from today. I was thinking of an interesting title for this entry of mine today when my cellphone rang. It was a number I did not recognize. I was a bit hesitant to answer it ( yes I'm weird haha I don't answer private numbers or numbers that are not stored in my phone), but I thought hey what the heck. As I picked up, the lady on the other line asked if she could speak to Kristine, I asked who was calling and she informed me that she was calling from Vodafone Australia. What does this mean? Well basically, I applied to be a sales representative for this company yesterday and I was asked for an interview tomorrow morning at 10am. YAY! Please pray for me, I can't stand a minute of working in Smiggle anymore. I need a new environment, I crave change. Although the rate is lower, everybody's gotta start from scratch again hey?
Wish me luck!
because I'm common
1. What is your legal name?
* Kristine Ciara Fererras Santos
2. How do you say it?
* As you read it
3. Why did your parents decide to name
you this?
* Apart from the fact that Kristine is very common filipina name, they told me that Ciara was a perfume back then.
4. What other names were they
considering?
* Something with Maria
5. Were you a planned baby?
* I'd love to think so.
6. When is your birthday?
* February 7, 1988
Friends
1. Who are your best friends?
* Karen Ramos, Sally Old and Maria Pilar Castro
2. Do you tell your best friends
everything or do you keep things from
them?
* There are certain things I keep to myself
3. Do friends come before family?
* Sometimes
4. Do most of your friends go to your
school?
* I dont go to school anymore
5. Do you have more friends or more
aquaintences ?
* more or less
6. Who’s the person you’ve stayed
friends with the longest?
* Karen Ramos, through thick and thin biatch!
7. Does your best girlfriend come
before your boyfriend?
* of course, no hesitations.
Family
1. Name the people you live with:
* mama, papa and janus
2. Which parent are you closer to?
* my mama
3. Why?
* I guess it's just the way it is
4. Are you close to your siblings?
* sometimes
5. Who in your family do you not like
so much?
* wala naman
Love
1.What do you think of ligaw?
` It's common
2 .Do you believe that friends can
be lovers, but lovers can never be
friends?
` yeah sure
3. Do you believe that you can learn to
love someone kahit hindi mo talaga sya
mahal?
` I don't think so
4. Who is your ideal partner?
` Jericho Rosales LOL
5. Have you met your soulmate?
` Yes
6. Is it true na ang love nawawala o
nababawasan lang?
` both can be true
7. Have you really let go of someone?
` yes
8. missing someone??
` so much
9. Are you always serious when it comes
to relationships?
` yes
10. Which one do you prefer,
friendship or relationships?
` friendships
11. Why ?
` because they always tend to stay longer than relationships.
12 .Have you fallen in love with your
bestfriend?
` been there, done that
13. Have you fallen in love with
someone you regret on loving?
` yes
14. If yes, why do you regret?
` because he did not deserve my love.
15.Are you in a serious/fling
relationship right now or just plain
single?
` single
16. Are you a player?
` No
17 . Are you serious when you're in a
relationship?
` didnt you already ask this one?
18. Are you a martyr?
` HAHAHA yes I AM.
19 .Do you believe in marriage first
before living in or vice-versa?
` marriage first.
20 .Why?
` because I want to.
21. Are you going to say 'yes' or
a 'no'?
` to what exactly?
22.Do you look ahead to your future or
do you look behind to your past?
` both
23. Why do you think most relationships
don 't last?
` because the other person gives up.
24. Do you really think love can
conquer all?
` yes, believe it or not.
Random
1. Whats one thing that's heavily
weighing on your mind?
` A lot
2. Whats one thing you've learned from
a good friendship gone bad?
` DO NOT MAKE EFFORT FOR PEOPLE WHO DON'T MAKE EFFORT FOR YOU
3. Whats one thing you've learned
lately from love?
` love yourself first
4.Is there anyone special in your
life in general at the moment?
` my family, friends and him
5. What can you say about your ex?
` Hi, I miss you.
6. Is there anything in your past that
you'd like to try again?
` yes
7. Who do you like to spend your
nights with?
` myself hehe
8. Are you an emotional person?
` VERY
9. Are you self conscious?
` minsan
10. Do you think of others before
yourself?
` lately
11 . What's something that can always
make you feel better?
` a good coffee with Karen
12. Who was the last person you had a
crush on?
` No one
13 . Where do you see yourself this
time next year?
` still here in Australia
14. Do you tend to make relationships
complicated?
` yeah
15. Who do you feel the most
comfortable around?
` my friends
16. Is there something that you're
waiting for?
` yes
17 . Can you live without your
cellphone/s?
` no
18. How do you feel about change?
` change is always hard to deal with.
19 . What are you most looking forward
to next year?
` going to the Philippines
20. What are your plans for your next
birthday?
` celebrate it with my loved ones.
21. Do you even care about your
birthday?
` yes
22. Do you think anyone in general out
there loves you?
` yes
23. What did you do earlier today?
` I was at work
25. What will you be doing in the next
two hours?
` sleeping
26. Do you still talk to the person
you LAST kissed?
` yes
27. Have you ever seen your best
friend cry?
` yes
28. What kind of vitamins do you take?
` wala..
29. When was the last time you said i
love you?
` I cant remember
30 . Did you get any compliments today?
` yes, my hair
31. Are you friends with your
neighbors?
` yes.
32. What were you just thinking about?
` ano oras work ko bukas.
33. Name the places you have lived in.
` AUS
i love you kaz
You always always know how to make me feel better Kaz, thanks for the wonderful friendship. For sticking by me through thick and thin. For listening to my rants and all, for never leaving my side, for being a GOOD FRIEND. Your such a beautiful person, inside and out. We've been through so much together. Done the most random and stupid things. Hehe memories I will always cherish.
That coffee tonight was great, released all my dramatic stories, and vice versa. No matter how bad things are, you just tend to make everything ok. I love you darling. Cheers to our wonderful friendship.
I'm sorry
my star
I've found that many people tend to not speak up when something bothers them, thinking that it is trivial to mention it. Unfortunately, what happens is after repeated times of not speaking up, some small occurrence happens and it ends up being the straw that break the camel's back. I`m hoping that, with this letter you will accept my most sincere apologies. I made a mistake, and was unfortunate in what I said, but I didn`t mean to offend you. I was unusually inappropriate, and my biggest mistake is that I acted like towards the person that least deserved it, because you are one of the people that brought me back the joy of life during the hardest times. I know you well enough to have guessed the things I said would offend you. I`m sad and, at the same time, mad at myself for having been so stupid. Please forgive me. Please don`t take my apologies as yet another selfish attitude, and as if I`m only thinking about myself, as you may seem to think a lot.
You have come into my life at a time when I needed you the most. We talked about so many things that I started to realize my heart and my soul could actually feel something other than hurt and all the pain. You placed comfort where there was fear, confidence where there was doubt, a shoulder where tears could fall and completeness where there was emptiness.
I wanted to be the one who would be there when you needed to talk. I wanted to be the one to comfort for your soul when the world was too much to handle. I wanted to be strong for you when everything else seemed impossible. But I didn't, I was never there for you.
I know you must be upset and I can perfectly understand why. I`m aware of the extent of my mistake and I`ve even tried to put myself in your shoes. I understand the sad and uneasy situation that I`ve put you through just because of a slip up but mostly because of my childishness. Sorry if sometimes I seem not to care. Sorry if sometimes I do not appreciate you and most importantly I'm sorry if I seem to be insensitive. Masabi ko lang gusto ko masabi sayo, ok na wala akong pakialam kung masaktan ka man, I'm sorry kung minsan hindi ko na naiisip na nasasaktan ka na sa mga sinasabi ko. I'm sorry if I don't understand your reasons for everything that you do for me, and I'm sorry I took you for granted. This time I am begging for your forgiveness in front of the world. I promise I will make it up to you.
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I'm sorry Mark Anthony Gestole
You are important to me
love always, Kristine Ciara Santos.
pagbigyan ang puso ko
Magmula nang tayo ay nagkalayo Mga pangako tuluyan nang naglaho Pinilit kong bumangon At limutin ang lahat Pagkat walang magagawa Kahit malayo ka sa piling ko Ikaw parin ang hinahanap hanap ko At kahit pa nalaman kong may kasama kang iba Ikaw pa rin sa puso ko Bumabalik ako ngayon sa 'yo Sana ay maramdaman mong mahal
Pa rin kita Sana maniwala kang di ka na mag-iisa Dalangin at pangarap ko Ako'y muling mayakap mo Sana pagbigyan ang puso ko Marahil mahihirapang balikan Ang dating pag-ibig na naramdaman Ngunit kung mayron pang naiwan sa iyo Pag-ibig ko sa puso mo Ako ay babalik ngayon sa iyo
Magmula nang tayo ay nagkalayo
Mga pangako tuluyan nang naglaho
Pinilit kong bumangon
At limutin ang lahat
Pagkat walang magagawa
Sana ay maramdaman mong mahal
Pa rin kita
Sana maniwala kang di ka na mag-iisa
Dalangin at pangarap ko
Ako'y muling mayakap mo
Sana pagbigyan ang puso ko...
the meaning of true love
What exactly is love? Is there an absolute meaning to the word - love? Or is it purely subjective? The concept of true love is what we search for all our lives. We wait for it, we long for it, we wish for it. Yet love is one of the most misunderstood concepts of all. What people really want more than anything else is to be loved unconditionally; to be accepted for who we are, and still be loved. Sometimes, it's not enough just to say it. Actions are indeed stronger than words.
I believe that true love is never tired of waiting; love is kind; love has no envy; love has no high opinion of itself, love has no pride; love's ways are ever fair, it takes no thought for itself; it is not quickly made angry, it keeps no accounts of wrong; it takes no pleasure in wrongdoing, but has joy in what is true; love has the power of undergoing all things, having faith in all things, hoping all things. Though the prophet's word may come to an end, tongues come to nothing, and knowledge have no more value, love has no end.
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth.
True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.
How about you? How would you define true love?
coz I had a bad day
It was 10 am and I was happily sitting in the dining room, sipping my coffee. Suddenly my cellphones rings, its work. My manager asks if I'm busy and if I wouldn't mind coming in to work to help her out because it was really busy and they could not really manage the store with just three people on the floor, they needed a fourth person on. I said yes, since I didn't have any plans for the day anyway.I then slowly started to get ready, had a quick shower. Got dressed then asked papa to drive me into work. I don't know what it was, but I was really not myself today, I felt really down. Wala ako sa mood, mabigat yung pakiramdam ko. I walked into work, greeted my workmates with a "sluggish" hello and went straight to the storeroom to put my bag in. I came out, started doing my own thing, started stocking up. Helping a bit of customers here and there, but it felt like I wasn't even there. My body was there physically, but my mind was wandering around. I wanted to go home, in fact it felt like I wanted to lie down somewhere and have the sun shine on my face. I was so over everything, and I still am. I'm sick of having to think about things, too much.It was 11.30am when Fiona asked me to be on the register, and she started finishing what I was stocking up. I served a whole bunch of customers, when two minutes later, Stephen from head office comes in to perform a surprise assessment on our store. It even took me a while to register, that it was our "big boss". He then asked me why our store was looking low on stock, and I blankly answered that it was because we did not receive our delivery on Monday, and instead we only received it today. I explained to him that two of my staff members were down at the off site stockroom, unpacking 120, yes 120 boxes of stock. He then smiles at me, and says OK and told me to keep up the good work.So I continued to serve more customers, not long after Stephen left, Kate who is another Regional Manager calls me. I answered the phone, exchanged hellos and how are you's. She then asked why I had a drink under the counter, and why I was chewing gum! Stunned by her question, I really cannot remember what I answered. All I really remember is her yelling at me from the other line telling me that, basically what I have done is wrong. Ok here's why I got really angry. For fuck's sake, I had a drink under the counter just like everybody else at work. Why do I GET ALL THE BLAME? Is it because I was unfortunately the one serving at the time? We are on our feet for more than 8 hours a day, serving customers, etc. So I guess, they least they could do is fucking get off our backs for having a bottle of water underneath the counter. Yes fair enough, it's customer service but it's not like we drink our water whilst serving customers. If anything, we wait until that specific transaction is over, then we take the time to have a drink. The gum? Give us a break. It's not like I was fucking chewing my gum like a horse. Enough said.Considering that I am the support manager at work, they spoke to me as if I was nothing. Fleur, my manager was right. THEY DO TREAT US LIKE SHIT. No wonder Fleur left, gave up her Managerial position for something else. People from head office do treat us like we are way below them, as if we did not know how to do our jobs properly. As if we did not have equal rights. Kate yelled at me for about 10 minutes, did not even give me a chance to speak for myself. When I got off the phone, I just felt like I was going to burst into tears. Considering that I was already having a bad day at work, plus this whole dilemma. I then went to the storeroom, sat for a while, and tried to stop the tears from coming down. Bleh, but I couldn't help myself, I burst out in tears, like a little girl. Yes the much awaited breakdown. Yes, I broke down, I couldn't handle it anymore. So much stress, that I don't even need right now. I then decided to just go to the off site stockroom and unpack the boxes myself. Yes, its only a retail job to some people, but I love working there, because I enjoy working with kids, and also because my workmates are my close friends too. So it doesn't even feel like work, when I am at work.I'm just so so sick of everything. Everything is happening all at once. Everyone at work knows how much work I do, sacrifices I make just so I would not let the team down, especially during these times as it is the busiest time of the year, and yet at the end of the day it's still not enough. I mean I didn't become a support manager for nothing right? Obviously I deserved it. But why? Why doesn't it seem like what I do is ever enough? Why aren't my efforts and hardships appreciated?Nothing is ever enough in this world is it...?
A photo of our off site stock room. A mountain of Boxes. Yes I had to unpack all these deliveries, and at the same time go through the invoice and tick if everything is in there, and of course ship them up the store. It's hard work isn't it?
indispensable
There are some things in life, that we should not even be giving importance to, sometimes we just tend to think too much, and notice every little thing an individual does. Sometimes we just over analyze things, when we shouldn't even exerting too much effort on petty things. Or sometimes, we just over react too much.
The ability to compromise is much more important than being able to get what you want at all times. Why is it with some relationships, that the other must always be "superior" to his/her partner? Why can't they ever be equal? I mean, I listen to you, to what you want, and vice versa. Sometimes, I've noticed that a couple would have an argument, just because the other did not "text" or call his/her partner. I mean I know, sometimes we can all tend to think that this is a big deal when it's actually happening to us. However, if you take the time to sit down and think about whether or not it's actually worthy of your time to argue, why not just use the time wisely to both have fun, and enjoy your time together. It took me a while to understand and realize that there are some things that one HAS to let go and two, there are things that are not worth arguing about!
This doesn’t necessarily mean that you would stop asserting your needs or voicing out your opinion to your partner, what I am saying is, choose what is of value. Argue about things that are I guess worthy of your time, and learn to let go of the petty things. If you really love the person, no matter how 'evil' they seem to other people, nothing will or could stop that 'feeling' simply, because you love that person, even all the ugly parts. Remember, LOVE is not all about being happy, it's also about being there for your partner through the roughest times. If you both pull through the trials together, then that's when you know that you've found true love. So if your reading this, and your in love with someone, but chose to 'keep it in' or 'gave up', don't be a coward. Go fight for her/him. Remember, not everyone falls deeply and truly in love. So learn to appreciate, the magic of love now, yes NOW.
Just remember of course that as long as what you value like commitment, love, respect, trust, integrity and honesty are not being compromised, what is indispensable IS NOT CHANGED, just let it go…
zits
new bangs and a zit in the middle of my nose LOL. Out of all places, haha stupid zit. PS, you can see my pants on the floor LOL
I'll never go..
You always ask me those words I say
And telling me what it means to me
Every single day, you always act this way
For how many times I've told you
I love you for this is all I know
Come to me and hold me and you will see
The love I give for you still hold the key
I'll never go far away from you
Even this sky will tell you that I need you so
For this is all I know I know
I'll never go far away from you
Every single day, you always act this way
For how many times I've told you
I love you for this is all I know
I'll never go far away from you
Even this sky will tell you that I need you so
For this is all I know I know
I'll never go far away from you
I'll never go far away from you
Even this sky will tell you that I need you so
For this is all I know I know
I'll never go far away from you
I'll never go, never go away
I'll never go away, never go
when true love ends..
how long before you should let go?
how long does true love wait for, hopes for and longs for another chance?
don't speak
HAHA, wala lang, just thought I'd have a dramatic entrance. This picture looks so ma-drama. I just had a trim yesterday. I don't really like it. I miss my old longer side bangs, the hairdresser cut it too short. So yan, kunwari sad.
Im so over it
Ok so Im frustrated at work. Working too many hours, plus the pressure during this Christmas season. Yeah it's retail, but OH MY GOLLY, who would think we would make about $ 8000 on just stationary a day? Far out, people are always in the store, I can't barely move and stock up the shelves, I don't even have time to think because people are always in my face asking questions! How much is this, how much is that, do you have any more of these in stock, Do you have this in pink, or green? Yadda Yadda Yadda..
This week has been dragging on, we have a new manager taking care of us from another branch because my manager decided to leave and do something else. You would think that she would actually know how to handle the store well, considering she has been managing that other branch for a while now! But no! AAAAAGH.. She's made a few mistakes, that she shouldn't even be making. I know we should give her a chance to settle in but come on, she needs to lift her tush a bit more, considering our branch is the busiest branch Australia wide.
I'm starting to hate the Retail field. I need a change, I'm starting to hate the whole customer service thing plus the fact that your always on your feet for long periods. AAAAAH, and it's nearly christmas. The busiest period in the retail industry!
PS.
Happy Birthday Gerard Peter Frayco. Yes I still remember your birthday hehe. I hope that you have a great day today, I hope that your happy with her. I miss you, I wish I still had contact with you so that I could greet you a happy birthday, but it's ok. I know your doing great now. Happy birthday. Love always, squirt.
Do you have what it takes to..?!
to love and receive nothing in return
to wait for someone who will may never come back?
to ignore all the pain you feel
I DO..
on another note.
1] Who has your heart?
~ he does
2] How did you wake up this morning?
~ with a sore body
3] Which is more romantic: sunrise or
sunset?
~ sunset
4] Are you wearing any non clothing
items?
~ yellow headband
5] What did you do last night?
~ was at work
7] Would you kiss the last person that
you kissed again?
~ sure
8] Did you brush your teeth this
morning?
~ yiss
9] Have you ever been on the radio?
~ nope
10 ] What did you drink today?
~ ice tea
11] Do you like honey?
~ no
12] What's the last thing you broke?
~ nothing
13] Do you know the date?
~ 8th of december
14] Where's the last place you went
shopping?
~ Highpoint
15] Did you sing at all today?
~ yeah
16] When's the last time you cried?
~ today
17 ] How many letters are there in your
last name?
~ seven.
18] When did you go swimming last?
~ cannot recall
19] Do you love anyone other than
family?
~ definitely.
20] What book did you read last?
~ nada
21] How was your day?
~ so far, it's getting better.
22] Is your shirt dirty?
~ nope
23] Do you live near your best friend?
~ nope.
24] Are you a Bon Jovi fan?
~ no, sally is LOL
25] Are you scared of snakes?
~ yeah
26] How do you like your meat cooked?
~ just right
27] Can you play guitar?
~no :(
28] How do you walk?
~ with my two feet
29] What do you think of Fergie?
~ liscious.
30] Do you read Rolling Stone?
~ nope.
31] Do you believe in love?
~ of course I do
32] Have you seen Titanic?
~ yes
31] Did it make you cry?
~ yes hehe
3 4] What's the last TV show you
watched?
~ CSI
35 Do you like basketball?
~ dont mind it
36] What eye color do you like?
~ green
37] Last time you went out of the
country?
~ 3 months ago
38 ] What are you doing tomorrow?
~ work.
39 ] Where were you 5 hours ago?
~ at home
40] Who was your last hug from?
~ janus
41] Are you wearing SOCKS right now?
~ nope.
42] What are you wearing right now?
~ black shirt and blue shorts
43] Who was the last person you talked
on the phone with?
~ him
44] Have you bought any clothing items
in the last week?
~ yeah
45] What is the last thing you
purchased online?
~ I dont shop online
46] Do you miss anyone?
~ yes, and he knows it
47] Did you have fun today?
~ yeah
48] Do you like the number of this
question?
~ no significance whatsoever.
49] Were you an honor roll student in
school?
~ no
50] What do you know about the future?
~ I know that our hearts beat together, and it always will
5 1] Who was the last person you rode
in
a car with?
~ daddy
52] How old do you want to be when you
have kids?
~ I want to have 2 kids before I turn 25!
53] Did you meet anyone new today?
~ no
54] Do you have any tattoos or
piercings?
~ 9 piercings
55] One night stands or relationships?
~ i cant have both can I? LOL
Just coz you smile....
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oesn't mean you're happy. So when you frown does it mean your sad? Hmm, my brain is doing my head in again. I think too much, but I think my "sad eyes" are slowly starting to sparkle again :)
smiggle
comes from the root word smile and giggle. Just thought I'd write about my work, considering I think that whoever thought of the concept is extremely smart. Who would have thought that these people would make so much money out of stationary and school supplies, all day long.
Let me just share some pictures.
This is our shop.
What we sell. What makes us different.
some of our uber cool paper clips. There is a foot, hand and smiley face shaped paper clips.
clever yeah?
our funky scissors.
Yes, that's right. A JUMBO paper clip.
That's just a bit of our products. Do you reckon one day, I can come up with a concept that would be good for a business? Hehe
for fuck's sake.
There is simply no escaping it. Sooner or later, you are going to run into and have to deal with an angry and bitter person or persons. Unfortunately, it's a fact of life. Someone is angry, bitter, upset, jealous, mad, enraged, and you just happened to cross their path. So what's a person to do when they are faced with this wild beast known as an angry human and they are bent on taking their frustrations with their life out on you?
There are several options open in how to handle an out of control person. Remember the anger is their problem, it's eating at them. It's not about you at all. An option is to strike back with a vengeance. This is human nature. When someone hurts you, our first initial reaction is often to return hurt for hurt and pain for pain. But this isn't right. Returning vengeance for a wrong done only makes you look bad, and it only puts a burden on your heart. So just be the bigger person. When people manipulate by making you feel guilty, they entrap you within their own agenda - you become merely an instrument to get them what they want. They are in fact treating you as an object; a means to an end.
Guilt trippers will try to make you feel responsible for what they do and feel. This immature tactic subsumes all responsibility. Ultimately, of course, what they do and feel is down to them.
Are we still upset if someone makes a mistake? Do we suppress our annoyance or do we speak out and if so in a suitable way? Do we instead feel like pointing out what has been done wrong and how to correct it or do we prefer to let the other discover this for himself? Or when they confront us about the issue do we turn around and pretend like nothings wrong and be all fake about it? These are all different possibilities of responding to the same problem, and the way we respond can show us how far we have healed ourselves and what we still have to do.
The drama is still there unfortunately.. I don't know what got in to me but it seems like they never grow up considering that they are way older than me, and this really irritates the fuck out of me.
I just have a ONE message for you.
you will never ever get on my nerves.
1.) You don't deserve even a second of my time, hence I chose to keep quiet and be the bigger person.
2.) People who do THAT are people who want to make others feel BAD for them to feel GOOD. Oh yes it's true.
3.) Practice what you preach. Do not contradict yourself. If you say that I should be more understanding, make sure you are understanding yourself. Be knowledgeable of what you are saying. Think of better ways to attack a person. Do not talk in an uneducated language, unless you are really uneducated, then I guess you can't really help it ey?
4.) If you have nothing good to say, don't say it. Or at least make sure that you say something to make you look more stupid that you already are, how about something more sensible and good to the ears?
5.) Some people intend to make you feel bad. There is such a thing as constructive criticism but sometimes, people could be harsh enough for you to tell that it's more than just that. These people sometimes, get insecure and if they' are too weak to handle the temptation, they tend to put you down in the worst way.
lastly
please please buy a dictionary! For fuck's sake, do you even know what pestering means? Or you just don't know how to speak English right? When I confronted one of you to talk about the problem, you happened to be on your lunch break, and I told you you to tell me when your done so that we could talk about the problem and resolve it. Did you? FUCK NO. So don't you turn around and say that I "avoided" talking about it. You very well know that I confronted you about it. Does your "little clan" know about this? I don't think so missy.
Pestering? Annoying? as far as I know I left because you wouldn't shut the fuck up about this issue, so I chose to be the bigger person and decided to just keep my mouth shut, because regardless of me defending myself or keeping quiet it would still have the same effect on you anyway. How old are you guys? 20+ yeah? LOL it's sad, because all you can do is bitch about a person or make "parinig". You demand honesty yet, ni kayo nga hindi makuhang maging honest kahit man lang sa sarili niyo. Instead you choose to be all plastic, please please GROW UP. It's sad how these people are considered older than me, who already have obtained an education and a degree yet they can still tend to act like they are below me 
. Tsk, I will understand sana kung hindi kayo nakapag aral pero it's ok I'm not going to stoop down your level. Honestly, you all make me laugh, but it's ok your adding a little more entertainment to my life at the moment.
So I chose to get rid of all you, and then you turn around and say we are annoying and pestering you? FUCK, get your head checked or something. Who are the one's who can't fucking let go? Who keeps talking about it? Who is so hang up about it? Like there's nothing else more interesting that is going on with your own lives. Ooops. what life? Oh yeah, last piece of advice, get a life outside the internet world please, or at least try.
Here's one quote I got from a friend which actually makes sense to me now.
"When people try to pull you down, BE PROUD OF IT. It only means one thing: You are above them." 
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So fellas keep trying
Maybe next time you start to fight with me, I always have one simple message:
You don't know who you're messing with and no matter what you're trying to do...
Before you start pointing fingers, make sure yours is clean bitch!
you cannot destroy me completely or erase the happiness and confidence I'm enjoying.
This is the first and the last time I will ever talk about this issue, I have better things to think about and spend my precious time on. I pity you all because unfortunately you don't. But it's ok sweetie, just hang in there, you will be OK one day
I have a better life than yours, darling and unfortunately, there's nothing you can do to make your life match mine.
peace out yo!
happy birthday sally xoxo
to my bestfriend : Happy happy birthday gorgeous. Thank you for becoming a part of my life. Thank you for everything you have done for me, for being there for me through good and bad times. For knowing when somethings wrong, even when I don't say anything. THANK YOU. I LOVE YOU bitch. xo I HAD FUN TONIGHT, you looked HOT!
bracing for bitter people
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