Wondering
Why is it that sometimes, when someone has done you wrong, they're even the ones who have the guts to act as if it were the other way around?They snob you, they avoid you, they ignore you as if they havent done anything wrong.And you, not wanting any sort of fight to begin, make the first move and ask what's wrong. They reply with a cold "no" yet you see that it's one, big fat lie.And at the end of the day, it's you who says sorry for no reason at all yet you hear no response from them, is it because they are too stubborn to admit it? Why?Then you regret saying sorry, and blame yourself for having a soft, weak heart.At the end of the day, you no longer know who really is at fault. Your emotions or that person's.And it's depressing. Because after so much effort of creating links between you, one moment breaks it, and you are thrown on one side, half of the link on the other. You don't know if you'll ever find that half again, because even though you try, it hides. It doesn't want to find you. And you go on with only half of the link called memories, not ever knowing if there will still be an addition to those memories, or you'll just forever be reminiscing what you believe will never happen again...
last love song for you mahal
Am I trying to hard
To Keep this love alive?
You don't seem to care
About this love that we had
I called you last night
But you were not there
I didn't here from you at all today
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore
It's hard for me to say goodbye
The tears are falling down my eyes
I'm sorry,
I'm Sorry, but we tried...
I thought we shared a life that was full of love
But now I realize we shared an empty hope
I will cry my last cry
Before I say bye bye
I will sing my last love song for you tonight
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore
It's hard for me to say goodbye
We did out best to make things right
I'm sorry,
I'm sorry, but we tried...
I thought we shared a life that was full of love
But now I realize we shared an empty hope
I will cry my last cry
Before I say bye bye
I will sing my last love song for you tonight
I can't play this game
I'm just wasting my time
You leave me with no other choice
But to say goodbye
I want to work things out
But what's the point of it if
I have to be in love alone
It's not worth it anymore
how am I suppose to live
I could hardly believe it
When I heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone's swept your heart away
From the look upon your face, I see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the
Plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before I go
Tell me how am I supposed to live without you
Now that I've been lovin' you so long
How am I supposed to live without you
How am I supposed to carry on
When all that I've been livin' for is gone
I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to break down
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
And how can I blame you
When I build my world around
The hope that one day we'd be so much
More than friends
And I don't wanna know the price i'm
Gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than I can take
And I don't wanna face the price i'm
Gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true
tell me
There are nights when i cant help but cry
and I wonder why you have to leave me
why did it have to end so soon
when you said that you would never leave me
tell me
where did i go wrong?
what did i do to make you change your mind completely
when i thought
this love would never end
but if this love's not ours to have
i'll let it go
with your goodbye
why did it have to end so soon
when you said that you would never leave me
tell me
where did i go wrong?
what did i do to make you change your mind completely?
when i thought
this love would never end
but if this love's not ours to have
i'll let it go
with your goodbye..
not ready for goodbye..
mahal
Sittin' here starin' at the wall
Another lonely tear falls
I'm tryin' to write you this song
But I can hardly see the page at all
Cause it's breaking my heart
When I look in your eyes
And I don't see me anymore
Oh, and you're all I'm living for
Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
If you take your love away from me
You know I would die
Cause I'm not ready for goodbye
Baby, please pick up the phone
Tell me I'm crazy, I got it all wrong
I don't know what I'm gonna do
I don't know how to live without you
You are the first song
My heart ever heard
And baby, I-I believed every word
You are my heart, my soul, my world
Baby, tell me that you still believe
That you still love me
The way I love you
Every breath that I take, every beat of my heart
You know it's all for you
I wanna hold you, I wanna love you
Forever and always
Cause I'm not ready for goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
goodbye.
PS. We broke up
After battling with my emotions for a while, I finally came to terms with what my mind and good sense kept telling me that everything happens for a reason. The surge of memories and emotions that passed through me caught me by surprise. I cried a lot. I cried for what we were and how much we hurt each other in the past. I cried for how we let it fall apart. I cried for how much I love him. I cried for the loss, because even if right now we BOTH feel, agree and accept what it is... the one year and one month we were together were a combination of extreme love and extreme misery, possibly the two strongest and consuming feelings in the world. It made me realize that we are all people in this world fighting our own demons and struggling to win. It was beyond the pettiness of "I don't like you na, break na tayo", it was something that made me accept him for who he is and know and value what I want for myself. No one is wrong here. No one's the bad guy. I'm not blaming anyone for anything. I feel like this experience put me up another notch in the growing up department. All in all, it was good. I know I'll be ok. We all will. I'm a bit disoriented though I know what it is that I need to do.
Will I make it through the rain without you mahal??
Basta't Kasama Kita
Sa t'wing tayo'y magkakalayo
Hindi matahimik ang puso ko
Bawat sandali hanap kita
Di mapakali hanggang muling kapiling ka
Dahil kung ika'y makita na
Labis-labis ang tuwang nadarama
Magisnan lamang ang kislap ng 'yong mata
Kahit ano pa ay kakayanin ko na
Basta't kasama kita, lahat magagawa
Lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
Basta't kasama kita, walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita
Giliw, sana ay ikaw na nga
Ang siyang mananatiling kasama ko
Dahil kung ika'y mawawala
Pati lahat sa buhay ko'y maglalaho
Basta't kasama kita, lahat magagawa
Lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
Basta't kasama kita, walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita
Basta't kasama kita, lahat magagawa
Lahat ay maiaalay sa'yo
Basta't kasama kita, walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita
Walang kailangan pa
Wala nang hahanapin pa
Basta't kasama kita
workaholic much?
Ok, so I work 47 hours a week. Kill me now please. I'm starting to feel the effects. I've been working full time for 3 weeks only, and I'm so close to giving up. My joints are hurting, and I can't barely get up in the morning. Whenever I am at work, I just find myself counting down the hours till its time for me to go home. Buti sana kung mabait pa yung may ari ng shop, napakataray at sungit minsan! I need sleep. I don't even have time to catch up with friends because I'd rather sleep on my day off. I miss those days, when my friends would randomly call and ask me to come out for a drive, a coffee, or a movie. Aah, now I don't have that luxury. Yes yes, I don't need to work at all, it's just that I've deferred from University and if I don't work then I'd have so much time in my hands. Time that would be wasted, so I thought I'd rather work and make money, than go out and spend money.I can't wait to go back to school. I feel so useless right now.
security
Just a random thought. Security Guards. Are they meant to protect you or cause you more harm and harrassment? because i dont know anymore. they stalk you around with their perverted eyes. its sickening. where ever you go, they're watching you, undressing you with their eyes, or coughing to get your attention, chatting you up and flirting, asking for your name or whether you've got a ride home. Going to work use to be a safe and friendly place, but not anymore.
Distance is not the end of the world in a relationship
Distance cannot, and will not hurt a bond between two people that is based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love.
Although you may feel like you are losing faith in your relationship at times, hold fast and trust your heart, it's what they say.
I, like you, truly believe that love & relationships are what make your life special, and that ones built on love & understanding are always worth preserving, regardless of the miles that may separate two people.
Both challenging and difficult, though they may not be what we want to hear, are the words that best describe long distance relationships. Keep in mind however, that the words are challenging and difficult, not impossible. Many people choose to give a long distance relationship a try, with the constant curiosity if it was the right decision to make and if it even stands a chance. The truth is, a long distance relationship has just as much a chance of succeeding as any other relationships.
Long Distance Relationships share the same facts as an average relationship. It involves two people who share an interest in each other's lives, care for one another and of course have a love for each other that they hope will only continue to grow. On the other hand, a long distance relationship does have its differences as well. It takes away your ability to see each other on a frequent note, as well as the choice of being intimate whenever you desire, not to mention that there would be major trust required. Being unable to spend time together in a physical presence makes it harder to hang on to, but does not spell out doom for your relationship.
With the right amount of effort and interest on both parts, a long distance relationship can survive the obstacles it will frequently be challenged with. As long as you both refresh your memories of why you chose to do this in the first place, trust each other, inform one another of your personal lives, keep in touch, and visit, your relationship can turn out to be one of the most successful and happy relationships that ever existed. You both will be secure, happy and satisfied until the day comes when you will re-unite for good and build your wonderful future together.
Bracing for bitter people
It's funny how people can make small things into big things. It's funny how they can make not even 1/4 of the big picture seem as if it were bigger than the whole. It's funny how they can be so nice in front of you, and stab you at the back later on. It's funny how they take so much of their time and effort just to say bad things and mean words. It's funny how they judge others just because of one, insignificant incident. It's funny how you can never tell what their real motives are. It's funny how they don't look at their mistakes and look for mistakes in other people. It's funny how they waste the little time they have getting mad. Its funny how they refuse to listen to what the person has to say for their self. Its funny how they get angry and yell at a person without giving them a chance to even have an opinion. Its funny how they laugh at people and react violently when they are being laughed at.
Its funny how people can be so sensitive that they cannot see the other side of the story.
Oh well, people will always be people. If not for them, we wouldn't learn so they definitely play a big role in our lives. Well maybe be the best way to deal with it to be the bigger person. Making mistakes is human nature, after all..
Why is it so hard to forgive a person who has made a mistake?
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